April 27, 2005
-
i love xanga. all the different ways people have to express themselves, yet a lot what they say strikes cords and rings bells...makes me feel part of the bigger picture
i had dinner with a friend who has a little girl of 2. i played a little with her and i feel great now. hey maybe i'm not doomed to be a bad mum
on the other hand, i've just realised, the need to be where it's at. i can't live in the suburbs, or ensconced in a small office, or in a small place, and it will be like this for a while for me, possibly forever. i need to live the bright lights, big city, big office kind of life. i really need it. i think it's the result of being a lonely only child, living in the suburbs, i have suburb-phobia, general backwater-phobia. as for the suburban flat which is pending, i am planning to return home with the last tube mostly, after having worked, worked out, and socialised until my eyes shut for the night. you only live once.
last night after all the zzzz-ing, i conked out at 8.30pm and consequently woke up at 6am this morning. completely spaced-out by this incredible feat of having woken up early, i started having deep thoughts. like, a 28-year-old crisis. omg i am 28 and single, and i draw parts of a building for a living. i really felt like doing something about my situation, so once on the bus, i took out the laptop (oh dear) and typed a resolution about making a bigger effort. then i had a moccha and i managed to have a pretty fast day.
this is the adrenaline talking. i think i need to go out and run. i can always have a moccha in the morning. lol.
Comments (1)
how do you communicate with little children? i am a complete failure! when i talk to my cousin's grandchildren (one of them is almost 4, the other two almost 2), they don't give much response. so i just follow them around in case they fall, and when they do fall i pick them up and get them going again. they are fun to look at, but quite boring in a way
Comments are closed.